Bittersweet 2017!

2017! Ah, this one was quite a year. I’ve seen quite a lot of shades and hues. Not quite sure if I’ve come out with flying colours or just shades. But surely, I’ve come out of it, once and for all.

The year started off just the usual. But it had a lot to look forward too. Summer Internship, Campus placements and the likes. It was a tough time until I finally managed to bag an internship in March. All hail SWAN Labs, IIT Kharagpur. Those 55 days of round-the-clock work was something I can never forget. Nevertheless, I managed to make a close friend there who has only made the entire ordeal seem much easier. The campus and the cycle rides are divine. Sunset at the helipad is a sight you shouldn’t miss. And the evening rains, oh my!! That period there has offered me a whole new perspective and I managed to have quite a few firsts there.

Getting back to college and facing the placement pressure was terrifying. Thankfully enough, I was freed of it early in the semester, thanks to Capgemini. What followed later was, in the best words I can phrase, an eye-opener. I shall never forget what I learnt through a few episodes that happened in that period. I learnt life the hard way. I’ve been in a state of denial, self-hatred, angst, everything. And then, like the trails of crisis, I had my epiphanies. I realised I shall never let anyone take me for granted. I have built my defenses pretty strong and it’s very tough for you to catch me off guard now. If you wish to take me for granted, then congratulations, you’ve earned your exit ticket from my world. 🙂

I have explored more facets in life, spiritually and otherwise. Found a new love in performance poetry and tried performing for the very first time. I promise to get better at it with time. Ventured into voice-acting, and it’s so addictive.  I’ve finally shed my inhibitions where I could.

Since I can’t rant here for long and this has to be summarised, let me do the honours:
This year has been bittersweet, in its truest sense. I’ve seen and felt all shades of people and myself. From narcissism to self-hatred to self-love, I’ve been through it all. And what can I say, I’ve emerged wiser at the end. Beginnings and closures, they’re all what complete you, once in a while.
I shall never forget 2017, and I’m wrapped in ambivalence bidding farewell to it.

2018. I hope you make me stronger and wiser, like your brother ’17 here. I have a lot of plans for you. Hope you do too.

’18, you do have plans for me, right?! You better have.

Pain!
Turns our hearts into stone.
For someone to sculpt masterpieces out of it.
Stones that tremble once in a while.
A landslide, or a tremor, mostly due to love.

We do break each other’s hearts,
mostly into masterpieces.
There’s pain! Yes! And there’s fear.
And you know, what we fear?
We fear the day we don’t feel pain.
That’ll be the day we’re numb,
and lifeless like a corpse.

’17 taught me pain, success, delight and failure, in their fair share! Thanks for that!

Not-So-Sweet ’16

Hello Everyone!

I’m ranting here after so long. I’m not sure if you missed reading me here, but I missed writing here. The mandatory year-end post is here. I was seriously contemplating on reviewing the entire 2016 this time.  What good is that? As if surviving it wasn’t an achievement in itself, reviewing it? I don’t think it’s worth all that effort. Yet, I guess I’d end up doing it anyway.

Personally, I had to wrap up three semesters in one year. Thanks to a strike we held last December, our semester exams were postponed to January. So yes, our new year started with a week full of exams (by far, the most stressful week in my life). It got worse when the results were due in the next two weeks. So yes, it was also the most stressful month in my life.  But, in hindsight, I’m happy it’s done and dusted with. In foresight, I’m sure it’s out there to haunt me again. :-/

In short, 2016 had one HELL of a start.  What makes me feel better though is that it’s not just me who hates 2016 the most. A major part of US (at least 59,739,748 people) are cursing their destiny right now for the 11/9 disaster. (9/11 was when the twin towers crashed, 11/9 was when the hopes for a better future crashed). Britain joins the bandwagon too, thanks to Brexit. Months have passed, and still nothing to fix it. Not so great an year for the Pakistani artistes either, you know why.
Boys have been brozoned and friendzoned like every other year, thanks to the many Sonam Gupta(s) around. The worst of all though, was the fate of the 1000 rupee note. It’s like one of those moments where everything has been going great with you until a single day wipes you out of existence. Often rejoicing in the hands of rich ladies and gentlemen, the note had to finally end up in the trash can for the rag pickers to grab. A move to curb the black money, they say. (Isn’t that a racist move?) The 500 rupee note was revamped, like those many old Bollywood songs. Pink, the movie, deserves a national award nomination. Pink, the colour, earns a place in the highest denomination.

Mitron, kesh kale hona chahiye, Cash nahi.
Mitron, desh ki bhalai honi chahiye, sirf  khud ki nahi.
Mitron, soch badalna chahiye, currency nahi.

Currency affairs have been a major part of the current affairs. I hope that changes in the days to come.

That apart, there have been silver linings too. But the dark clouds were overwhelming.
Speaking of clouds, Chennai had to bear the brunt of yet another cyclone and have been resilient enough to get back to normal in no time.

On a personal note, this year has had its ups and downs for all of us. While I don’t really want to focus on the downs right now, the ups have been a huge solace. YourQuote, this microblogging platform which kept me away from blogging here all this while, has been the best happening so  far. I write under a pen name Landlocked Sailor on the app.
Follow my writings at
http://yourquote.in/bharath-nandibhatla-dfa/quotes
I have been interviewed for the first time ever, in 2016, again thanks to YourQuote.
I never thought I will get there. 🙂

Here’s to wishing you all a happy new year 2017 and that it’s nothing like 2016.

Beauty and Beast

Once upon a time, in the peaceful community of Conscience, there was a severe drought. The famine was too terrifying to survive. The otherwise flourishing community was lacking any nourishment and the drought was turning out to be quite the nemesis for  Conscience.

Just then, out of nowhere, like a spark in pitch dark, sprung an angel.

The community which was known for its lush green pastures and perennial rivers, now bore the look of a torrid desert. It all happened when a few folks were walking by the dry riverside.  Less than half a mile away, from what was initially thought to be a mirage of sorts, appeared a huge bubble. The sight sure enticed the folks of the community and they walked towards it. The bubble cracked open and a fairy walked out of it. The folks were in awe at what they beheld. The fairy called herself Beautiful Lie.
Most people in the community hailed it to be the most wondrous creation they’ve ever seen. Soon, the Beautiful Lie rose to fame and she was hailed as one of their own kind by the community. Of the many things that one could envy about her, it was her ease at making friends that stood the most coveted. She roamed with this huge bunch of friends she made, everywhere she went. And before they knew, almost the entire community was into her.

Yes,  Almost! Not the whole of it.

Long before the Beautiful Lie could set foot in this community, there was an ill-fed, well-ignored and a sunken beast. It was called the Ugly Truth. It had been there ever since the community was born. The drought had its most adverse effects on this creature. Soon, the creature was hailed a beast and it went on to earn the title Ugly before its name, Truth.  Before the drought rooted its sinister claws into the community, Truth had two best friends – Honesty & Happiness. Ever since the famine occurred, Happiness stopped talking to anyone and Honesty was worried about Happiness.
But, things began to change a lot more and at a faster pace after Beautiful Lie entered the community. Happiness switched parties and started hanging out with Beautiful Lie. Honesty felt isolated. Truth would never talk or stay awake,  thanks to the drought.  So,  Honesty was devastated.  Assuming the drought to be its winter, Honesty slipped into Hibernation.
Beautiful Lie, they say, had a spat with Ugly Truth. It was a first, for the folks of Conscience. A fairy known for her vivacious persona would never spark a fight with the vicious beast. So, the folks gave in to believing that the beast might have pounced upon the Fairy. And it’s also believed that the fairy defended herself by throwing the beast into the raging fire the beast used to warm itself with.
Charred throughout, the beast got uglier, or in their words, a lot more beastly.
The community exiled the beast. Ever since, the beast wandered naked in the woods that dare-not-be-named.

The woods of Crisis, it was called. But, the community feared it and never called it out loud or even whispered. Ugly Naked Truth was actually tracking down its lost friend Honesty, who was hibernating in the woods.

The community had to send a representative to the Governing body to report their state of events. The unanimous choice was the loved-by-all fairy, Beautiful Lie. (You must trust me, the fairy’s appealing stature was such a stark contrast to the beast’s appalling demeanour. )
The fairy seemed to have done quite a commendable job at it and once again, won everybody’s heart in facile. Everything seemed to go right, but for the drought, which seemed to be invincible, inevitable. Even the fairy couldn’t care to think about it.

The elders of the community gathered to discuss the issue. They resolved to vent out this concern to Beautiful Lie. She was enjoying herself in a party when they approached her.  Happiness threw a party for the gang, apparently. As the elders began to elaborate their concern and read out the help they wanted from the fairy, Happiness noticed a slight tremble in Beautiful Lie’s otherwise firm stature. She started growing frail, all of a sudden, and most of her body was on the verge of an acute paralysis.  The elders were baffled and Beautiful Lie’s friends started to grow worried about their dear friend’s plight.

A cloud of smoke and the fairy was nowhere to be seen.  Beautiful Lie, who was thought to be the nemesis of the drought, dissolved into thin air. Baffled than ever, Conscience broke into utter chaos.

Meanwhile, the beast, Ugly Truth was close to tracking Honesty. Ugly Truth stopped nowhere. He followed Honesty’s trail and finally spotted what it was looking for.  In the Cave of Oblivion!

The Cave of Oblivion!
Somewhere, deeply seated in the densest woods of Crisis, this cave was a refuge to anything that lost its way from the community.

Ugly Truth did its best to awaken Honesty. Together, they rode their way into Conscience. By then, most of the community was trembling with fear. The drought had deepened its claws by now. The folks’ screams didn’t sound any louder than a whisper.  Honesty headed straight to the Elders. They were too shocked to say anything.
Determined, Honesty carried Ugly Naked Truth on its back and left for the Governing body. The Governing body never knew about the drought. Apparently, Beautiful Lie’s  report said that Conscience was flourishing as a paradise and the woods of Crisis have been cleared long ago.
Honesty’s report came as a blow to the body. And they found Ugly Naked Truth ghastly than ever now.

It was more than a while before the drought entirely left the community, but thanks to Ugly Naked Truth, the drought did loosen its claws. Why, Ugly Truth was fierce in his approach ever since it began to gain strength, thanks to Honesty’s toil.  Truth faced the drought’s claws, even if that meant he’d have to lose in the battle. Resilience, another refugee at the Cave of Oblivion (He had to go homeless after the elders drove him out of his home to make room for Beautiful Lie. He lost his way and ended up in the cave), traced Truth & Honesty’s trail into Conscience and gave a tough fight to the drought.  Honesty’s toil, Truth’s fierce defense and Resilience’s attack , the drought had to give in to them.  After a fierce battle, the drought left.  Most of Conscience was ripped apart by then, but the Governing body passed the grants and Conscience was being resurrected to past glory.

As for Happiness, I’m guessing it’s in the Cave of Oblivion. Sooner or later, it shall find a trail and trace its way back into Conscience, to reconcile with its best friends.

Only Now-Fierce-Truth knew that Beautiful Lie was no fairy, but a form-shifting wildling that broke loose from the woods of Crisis.

As for the bubble, it’s the same bubble we need to break out of, yet!

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Eye of the storm!

It really hurt.
Looking at her hurt.

It was only a while until all of it faded away, everything I thought her to be.
Or maybe, it was never there, to fade now.

It is like the night fading into dawn, when there was never actually a night, but a break from the day. Who could have seen the twilight if there was only a dawn! Who would have known what it feels like, to see the sun set and await his rise!

Anyway, she wasn’t like anything I knew, or would have known. She was a storm, and I caught her in  the eye of it. Guess that explains the calm. I should’ve only guessed further… that a storm awaits. But hey, I was too caught up with the pre-storm tranquility, to care about what’s up next. Yes, indeed! I was too caught up with it. I should’ve seen what’s coming.

Or maybe, I needed the storm. Once in a while, you shouldn’t see what’s coming your way. You might want to be clairvoyant or fore-sighted, but not an anticipative idiot, or to think of life as a map with definite ends and routes. Life’s rather a sea, which isn’t often detailed in a map. Why, a map is all about the surface!

You tell me, should a storm always culminate in chaos?

Maybe it always does, but I wouldn’t go as far as stating that it’s a chaos that’s detrimental. Trust me, behind such utter chaos lurk the fanciest epiphanies. A labyrinth is chaos, but to know there’s a way out is an epiphany. To figure out the way is the rest of it. No? I am having second thoughts too. To strongly ‘believe’ there’s a way out, might be the epiphany.

 

It hurt.
Looking at her after all that happened, really hurt.

It hurt me enough to break my heart, that fragile one… to break it beyond repair. But, here’s the silver lining about it. I have given in to believing that she stole this heart of mine, long ago. And now, she broke it. It was all hers, and she could do anything she wanted with it. Fortunate as it is, she doesn’t have it anymore, she broke it. She wouldn’t get to play with it anymore.
I’m at liberty, and she’s at loss.

What of my heartless soul, you ask.

What of it? I’d be like time, without emotion, yet in motion.
Even better now, looking at her would never hurt, not a feeling that I haven’t already felt.

…………….

It hurts.
Looking at her hurts, more than ever now.
Darn me! She has the pieces of my heart now. That’s a million hearts at her dispense, those that still throb for her. Damn it! 

The storm hasn’t faded yet, I reckon. It was silently gathering itself into a raging tempest.
Or maybe, it was never there, to ever fade?
Oh, this chaos! I’ll have it figured. You don’t bother.

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Picture courtesy: Google!

P.S.: This is a pure work of fiction and none of it has happened to me. 😛
Inspired from the first line of the movie ‘Stuck in Love’, I gave a shot at this. Totally an experiment, and a first for me. 😀

Castles on either sides..

Castles on either sides.
At war, were the blacks and whites.
Oh, don’t get me wrong,
this isn’t a racist song.

Crippled Kings fight their way,
with a well-guarded army.
Queens have quite the say,
and dare you to call that barmy!

The Queens prance over the battlefield,
guarding their Kings, safe and concealed.
The Knights, chivalrous as they are,
move in patterns, and not very far.

While the Kings bear the Holy Cross,
the holy Bishops cross their paths.
The Rooks only head straight,
mighty after a worthy wait.

Of all that fight on this battleground,
the myriad Pawns are the virtuous.
Pledging their life to His Majesty,
these are powerful than you can see.
Storm them into the other castle,
and they can resurrect your lost army.
They vivify the battle, create the hustle,
they make the rattle, and as much stormy.

Yet, unlike the wars fought on land,
you don’t always have to march ahead.
You don’t have to always kill, instead
make a move after you take a stand.
Devoid of revenge or vices,
this is surely a war of the intellect.

Look at it, all Black & White,
just like victory and defeat,
with a fine line in between.

Corner the crippled King,
you don’t have to kill.
Bring His army to a standstill,
and you shall be their King.

To corner is to conquer, mate..
the nemesis is a checkmate!

Pen drop Silence

I saw him again, Sir Verseworth..
this time, waiting for me.
Before him lay a parchment,
and a feather dipped in ink.
Not to spare a moment,
my petty mind began to think:

Here lies he,
 who, with insight, shall see.
Too many feathers to his cap,
dipped in ink, most of ’em.
Wandering places found in no map,
from a soul in wanderlust, great verses stem.
Is it just another hour of dawn,
where I read his verse, and let epiphanies dawn?

The parchment, empty,
the quill, dry.
Sir Verseworth would cry:

Come hither! Come hither!
Let the autumn leaves whither,
or let the flowers of spring bloom,
or let the world brim with gloom.
Yet, you come hither!

This dawn was different.
He was being indifferent.

Be it a raging tempest,
  or the roughest of tides,
 there’s no such tranquil
 as a pen drop silence.

The past or its diabolic sting
or the pangs of a wounded wing,
the merry of a mother post labour
or that grateful smile from your neighbour;
every ounce of it, a verse can take.
Multitudes more than that, a verse can give.

A part of the bigger paradox
is all that poetry is.
The deeper you go,
the higher you reach.

Somewhere, treading over infinity,
shall you find the summit
elegantly lurking in the abyss.

Only if your shovel was a pen,
shall you dig deeper.
Stop not at the springs your way,
for deeper inside, lies the core.

Let the ink fill empty parchments,
let its trail fill empty souls.

The quill was dry.
It wouldn’t be, once I try!

Dig deeper, Reaper!

Oh, Grim Reaper…
why don’t you dig deeper?

In the twilight of life, am I;
and my lips have gone all dry.
The winds swept away my pleas,
and my hopes drowned in the seas.

For so long, no soul I could behold.
For so long, this world has been really cold.
For no wrong, I’d to part with all that’s mine,
but for my shadow, when there’s sunshine.

Cast away, to the lands of solitude,
since a time that faded in memory..
just like I faded in the world’s memory.
Hence, here I am, waiting for my postlude.

So, I beseech you Reaper,
to hunt me down, to dig deeper.
Beneath those old bricks,
I wait for you, as the clock ticks.

Ferry tale

*le me, in the midst of a sound sleep
*Knock, Knock..!
*Opens door

“Dude, what’s wrong with you? Lost track of time, eh? We are late already, and look at you… you look like a drunk swine.”

I kinda got back to my senses. Darn me! We were supposed to be in the bus by then. Its 7 a.m. and I was still not completely awake, let alone, getting dressed. But hey, we are engineers, studying in a residential college. You can wake up at 8:25 a.m. and still reach the class by 8:30 a.m, dressed up.
“Wait up. I’ll be ready in five.”
7:15 a.m., and I’m running towards the bus already, with Jai rushing behind me. Trust me, to be the last one getting aboard, late by almost half an hour, to be greeted by sneering faces from your friends who have given up on expecting you to be on time, you feel like you’re on the verge of having your worst morning.
“You seriously need to see a shrink. For once in your life, don’t get late for something, at least not for a picnic”, Jai yelled at me.

We started off, the mist on the windows slowly dying and the fog around fading.

It was almost 3 hours later, that we reached her. She is called Mukutmanipur, in the district of Bankura, West Bengal. Having the second biggest earth dam of India, she is a picturesque beauty. As I got down the bus, hardly did I know that this day was going to be more than just an excursion, an adventure.

Well, what we’re talking about here is the reservoir of this famed dam. There are about at least 10 islands at this place and ferry-rides is how you can visit them. I, for one, love ferry rides more than anything. About 20 of us, booked a ferry and started off to a certain island called the Deer Park Island. Not many deer, hardly three could be spotted. It is like that these days, the deer find worse predators in humans than lions and tigers. However, besides all the hullabaloo about the deer park here, what intrigued me the most was the blend of gardens and barren lands. While most of the island was barren, and sand was all you could see, there were tiny tracts of land which had those little yellow flowers, of mustard. I remember seeing them first in DDLJ, where Rahul and Simran run endlessly towards each other, and somewhere near forever, they end up hugging each other tightly. I didn’t get the cliche then, but these flowers are lovely. They have this vibe about them where you feel radiant. The garden wasn’t spread long, but was amusing enough. It was one of those moments when bees did not freak me out.
Here comes the best part, our visit to the Never-go-island.
We were supposed to get back to the place where our bus halted, by lunch time. Would we get back? Uhmmn, you tell me. There are atleast three islands in your sight, and one of them is elegantly placed between the other two. It looks uninhabited and there’s a lot of foliage centrally on the island and the rest barren with rocks. It was more like a Mohawk with the hair dyed green. That’s one reason why I also call it the Mohawk Island. This was a very small island and our ferryman refused to take us there. We had to try real hard to convince him. In the island, there was a pile of rocks and we raced our way to the top of it. That view, believe me, I could die for.

A wide expanse of blue,
above and below.
And there I stand, without a clue,
as to why tides get high and low.
Yet, this much I know:
Far beyond lies our horizon,
and in between, lies an ocean.

We carved on the rocks there: “NIT DGP o’14-o’18 WAS HERE!”
For that little while we stayed, where in our sight were nobody besides us, where we had a sense of belonging to this place, where we could call it our own, isn’t that something you could treasure all your life? I was in the ecstasies of mirth, needless to say. And then, I did a crazy thing, something I’ve always dreamt of. Took a piece of paper, penned down a verse or two, rolled the paper, and dropped into a bottle. We bid our last kisses to this island, our island. On our way back, while in the middle of water, I threw that bottle into the water, far away from us. Who knows! Someday, after endless drifting, the bottle might find a shore, and the verse might find a reader. Along with the verse, went my contact no. saying “If you read this, please call me!” Maybe, years later, when I totally forget that I did something like this, when the verse I wrote slips into oblivion, I might get a call, and I might walk down to this day again. You never know the surprises life has to offer. The best part is that you don’t see them coming.

So far, so good. While on our way back, the water got turbulent, like real turbulent. ‘Typhoon-type’ would be a hyperbole, but ‘the usual’ would be an understatement. The boat was swinging violently, and there were just the twenty of us besides the ferryman. The latter stayed mum, and most of us were too scared to talk anything. I, for one, thought it wouldn’t be worse as we’re in no sea, but a reservoir. Besides, I did not mind what happened next. It was one of those moments of Deja vu. The turbulence lasted for a major part of our retreat. It wasn’t until all of us stepped out of the boat that we realised what just happened.
That and lunch, followed by a short walk along the shore, and we were back in the bus. Most of us were too tired. I was in no mood to sleep. The day was still in Replay-mode inside me.
Mustard flowers and the beautiful sight of them, the Mohawk Island, carving our names, my Bottled-up-feelings <pun intended>the turbulence inside and outside the ferry (obviously the former followed the latter) and the day as a whole, I can never forget it.

Enough of the day, here’s the epiphany:

There shall be at least one person in your life whom you think knows everything about you, one who you wouldn’t mind talking about anything and everything, one whom you feel one with. But, there’s always a part so pristine in you that surfaces at moments like these, when you are all by your self, and the silence inside you is resonating with the silence outside, when you don’t mind what happens next, and all that matters is YOU living that moment fully. Never lose a chance to live that moment. It is this part of you that was excavated from its depths, its the YOU that never sounded more than a whisper, its the YOU that was pristine, untouched, just like the moment you witnessed.

I had one such moment in the Never-go-Island, at the top of the rock-pile. Watch out for yours!

Good luck, folks.

Signing off,
The excavated part of ME!

 

Clouds and Linings

Hey there!
Firstly, it would be a blatant arrogance if I don’t thank you all today. WordPress, as I’ve come to know, makes an annual report of the blog at the end of every year. Considering the fact that I’ve been hibernating, it is quite a surprise to find out that the blog has earned more than 1200 views throughout the year. Thank you for scrolling through my blog despite my very irregular blogging schedules. I promise to fare better in 2016. 😀

An year ago, on the same day, I posted about being on a spiral woven by time. And 365 days hence, I’m fortunate to say that I’m still spiralling in. I feel blessed to find that I’m not alone on this journey either, and watching my fellow-travellers has only helped me move ahead in the best way possible. Instead of taking a slice out of my personal life, which actually had a lot of acquaintances and beloved ones showing me my way into the spiral, I’d like to talk about the cloud that had a silver lining.

The CLOUD with a silver lining.

While the cloud had got many people talking, I was happy to find the silver lining. This surely was one hell of a cloud, ‘monstrous’ would be apt. Still no clue? Well then, I might have to be sorry for the vagueness. :/ The floods in Chennai!
This city is an epitome of resilience. The Tsunami hit it hard in 2005, catastrophic on many levels. And then, these floods a decade later. Destiny has a tiger’s fist, you see. And to be blown twice in a decade, you don’t see that coming often. The coastline and the clouds teamed up, and there was heavy flooding in most parts of the city. Natural Disaster, they said.
Chennai was already neck deep in water before the Govt. could set its foot. All of this happens, you know! Get used to it. But what doesn’t often happen was the silver lining here. Secularism was a mere silhouette most of the times. Here, it over-shadowed the floods. The mosques, temples and churches alike, those built on high lands were brimming with refugees, of all religions. The youth (often brought into the news for the wrong reasons) carried the old on their shoulders. The residents in the safer places offered food and shelter to the ones otherwise. Facebook and twitter had the flood updates trending. Power banks and food packets, evacuation, every kind of relief measure, you name it! The people did it.
The knee-deep helped the neck-deep.
Mankind didn’t sound like an oxymoron any more.
Humanity didn’t sound like fiction any more.
If ever there was anything the way it was, it wasn’t Chennai. Be it the geography or the people. There were floods of sorts. One that made the news, of a heavy downpour, water everywhere. The other, that brought it to the news, a heavy out-pour, humanity everywhere.
The silver lining and the cloud were like the beauty and the beast.

The silver lining is what caught my eye. It restored my faith in the world around. Every cloud, with the sun behind, gets a golden lining. I guess I figured it, the Sun. He was this virtue that shone in the darkest times. No wonder Chennai was resilient. It was always along the sea that it might have inherited the sea’s resilience.

If destiny could blow this hard, resilience can hit back harder.

With that said, I am grateful to Chennai for helping me spiral in, no matter what, providing me an insight most needed.

Happy New Year 2016 y’all!

 

After Myriad Nights!

Quite a push for an amateur like me, this one. This poem has been recently published in a magazine called ‘UnBound’ which released on the auspicious Independence day. The Editors of it being real wordsmiths. Thanks to this amazing group on Facebook, ‘For Writers, By Authors’, a wheel-turner, trust me.

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Lustrous eyes and a beaming countenance,
His tiny legs kicking the walls of the cradle,
his father’s blissful face, seemingly intense,
until a hideous traitor rocked the cradle.
Stabbed from behind, the father profusely bled.
Minutes later, he lay there, dead.
The kid oblivious, his mother widowed.

Days later, the highest bidder
bought the kid and his mother.
Enslaved, the mother would shudder.
Yet, there were none to bother.

Time pranced in elegance;
the kid’s destiny did not.
With a shrunken body, dreary countenance
and a starving mother, he fought.
He had a semblance of bravery,
to survive through such barbaric slavery.

The epiphany dawned as his diseased mother,
deprived of a morsel, turned to a deceased mother.
He stood against his master’s whip,
gathering more courage than sinew.

“I no longer belong to you.
Your vice has lost its grip.
I have unchained my pinions,
and I’m not one of your minions.”


He dawned in the dusk of his mother’s.
And freedom unveiled his feathers.
The sunlight initially blinded his eyes,
but freedom finally opened his eyes.
After all, myriad nights hence, it finally dawned.

Of pens and perks!

Hey all!
I know I’m back on the blog after a really long hiatus. I’m afraid I can’t promise I’ll be more frequent from now on, either. But as long as we have stuff to read, it doesn’t matter. Anyway, getting to the point.

Recently, ran into an article on a ‘reputed’ website that talked about why girls should prefer dating writers over others. Much as it sounds intriguing, I wasn’t half convinced it was a writer’s perk. Oh c’mon, since when is earning a date with your nemesis(just because you write), a perk? (Please, with your humour hats on!)

So, every field, professional or otherwise, has its perks, in its own way. Since I pen down my thoughts more often than never, it’s not totally invalid if I talk about the perks of being a writer.
 

If the writing bug has bitten you sooner than many, you grow up believing in subtler dimensions of everything you see and your perspectives are mostly unexplored by others. And these are etched within you throughout your life. For instance, you get to go on a holiday to a place that boasts of beautiful waterfalls, and the first thing you say witnessing the beauty, would be something different than usual. Like, you might say “Did the river just bow down to nature, as if spell-bound at its metaphors?” Trust me, when people around you hear something that different, they might either wear a puzzled face or that of awe. Nonetheless, to have unbridled expression of thoughts is surely a perk.
I bumped into this particular line while scrolling through my news feed on Facebook a few days ago:
“Writing is putting yourself into someone else’s shoes.”
Not exactly the way I would prefer to call it, but it does imply a part of the bigger truth. What I personally believe is that
“Writing is delving into people’s souls.”
Might strike as a hyperbole when you first read it. Allow me to elaborate. When a writer, or for that matter, anyone who cares to express himself in a comprehensive manner, interacts with a person, the person often ends up revealing his deepest thoughts and projects himself in a way he has never done with other people. I have friends and it’s pretty obvious that they open up to me. What sets the whole thing unique is how acquaintances portray their deepest beliefs and opinions. You get to see them as the person they are, deep inside rather than a mere external demeanour. You get to see between the lines, you get to realise what sets them apart from the rest of the world, you get to touch their darkest fears and brightest dreams. No! Not because you asked for it, but because your tendency to pen down your deepest feelings resonates with them. You remind them of introspection, you remind them of the sea that lies within them. You show them to the oars that could set their boat for sail. That, I say, is a perk. Yet, more than that, it is a responsibility. If they could share their pristine space with you, it’s your responsibility to let it stay that way. To not judge, to resonate with the silence of their sea and its waves too.
If you’re still not convinced, let me get it straight:
“If you pour your soul out on paper, it’s very much likely that the one who reads it, pours it out on you. What gushes out of your heart might as well hunt for another heart to touch.”
This is one of the noblest of perks, or I prefer to call it a Blessing, that a writer can ever dream of.

When you’re in the ecstasies of mirth, or the pangs of despair, entangled in chaos or in any possible state of mind, there’s always a channel to vent it out: writing it down. In most cases, it’s the coconut scenario. Hard to crack open. The inside would be teeming with emotions craving to gush out. Writing, I believe, is like breaking open the shell, revealing the pulp that was so long concealed. This isn’t an exclusive perk though. Everyone has their own way of expressing. It is just that this mode of expression reaches out to a lot more coconuts waiting to crack open. Call it the magnanimous perk.
You might be bereaved of your dearest ones, and a day later, you could be writing about it, to off-load yourself of the grief. You might achieve your biggest dream, and that very night, you could translate your mirth to words. You might be confused as hell. Give it a shot on ink, and the epiphany might dawn, sooner or later. This works, either way!

Did not mean to make it this long, but I’d wind up listing just another perk:
“You can fathom the stars in you to constellations.”

Hope you had a happy read. If this reminded you of the sea within you, by any chance, and if the tides have gone too strong, go grab a pen. You have the ink, a pen is all you need.

Signing off,
Ink in a pen.

The fault in our stars: Mining the galaxy!

Hey,
This is just one more of those instances where I’m going to put you up through a long, tedious write up. But don’t blame me for that. Either John Green or the fictitious Peter Van Houten might have to turn up to take the blame.  However, I am short of any reasons at all, to call The Fault In Our Stars as An Imperial Affliction. Surely, I wouldn’t scratch the Imperial part, but Affliction needs some working. Why not call it ‘An Imperial Affection’? Umm, based on the notion that affection always has attachment clinging on to it, I might be wrong, because the whole story is about not-being-attached, or at least about not-being-desperate. But, I’ll go with it, and take pride in calling it ‘An Imperial Affection’, one that crosses all boundaries and merges into the depths of nature, in facile.

I have watched the movie before I could get my hands on this amazing book. While the movie left me in utter awe, dwarfed and dumbfounded at its genius, the novel was a novel experience. I can’t exactly frame out which parts of the novel have been abridged into the movie, but there were a few lines that were worth a mention, even more, contemplation. (A few lines were fortunately included in the movie too. But there was a lot more gold that was left in the mine, pristine.)

  1. Pain demands to be felt
    Sure thing! Pain draws its victim into its clutches, by feeling it. Its demand for feeling it is so strong that, the moment you start ignoring it; it might only worsen, forcing you to feel it.
    Nonetheless, there’s always a way out, observing the pain.
  2. I was left on the shore with the waves washing over me, unable to drown.
    This had me thinking, for at least an hour. Not much of a revelation, but something I have never cared to project. Poets and writers have written about the joy of having the waves soar and recede OR the violence associated with the sea waves. Yet, not a lot of them have cared to demarcate the borders between being washed over and drowning. Green had an amazing context in his plot, to plant this beautiful sentence.
  3. The dead are visible only in the terrible lidless eyes of memory.
    ‘Lidless’ struck to me as an excellent metaphor here. Memory looks at things without a filter, right? 😉 Memory is unbiased, forever exposed to the gray and yellow of the past.
    And the dead, we often avoid to think about them. Yet, the no-filter-sight-of-memory brings to us the deeds of the dead. While the bodies are buried, the souls are resurrected time and again, along the memory lane.
  4. I was living with cancer, never dying of it.
    Need I explain? The most chivalrous wars are fought with spirit, not weapons.
  5. It’s hard as hell to hold on to your dignity when the risen sun is too bright in your losing eyes.
    Metaphors are just lurking behind the veil of beauty that drapes this particular sentence.
    As the dawn breaks into the dark ambience of your room, the rising sun might be a threat to your losing eyes. After all, dignity needs to arouse the warrior in her, to fight for its survival, in the light of dawn.
  6. Like all the innumerable dead, he was demoted from haunted to haunter.
    No subtler way to hint the aftermath of bereavement, than this. He, who was haunted by the past and many other events that shaped him into what he has become, might one day embrace death. And after embracing, he might become the haunter, an affliction. He might be someone else’s past. His loss might be an event that shapes someone else. Hence, Haunted-to-Haunter.
  7. Funerals, I decided, are for the living.
    No comments. You got to read the plot to get into skin of this line.
  8. So dawn goes down to day, nothing gold can stay.
    Time and tide wait for none, not even gold. Oblivion, a curse, at least in the most cases.
    Or may be it isn’t. May be, “If the inevitability of human oblivion worries you, I encourage you to ignore it. God knows that’s what everyone else does.” Or “Oblivion is universal and inevitable. The problem is not suffering or oblivion, but the depraved meaninglessness of these things, the absolutely inhuman nihilism of suffering.” (I’ve been quoting Hazel Grace here. I wouldn’t have been able to put it in better words.)
  9. Grief doesn’t change you, it reveals you.
    Grief is brief. Only its aftermath lasts long. It just strikes as a tide at the need of the hour, when you have grown oblivious to all that YOU were made up of. It doesn’t change you into someone you’ve never known, rather unveils the disguises you have involuntarily made over yourself, to reveal the YOU that you have long forgotten.
  10. At a height, the ocean seemed a great and endless monolith.
    While the ocean generally reminds me of its tides, there are often times when it resembles a vast expanse of sheer silence, and a personified resilience. Times like these, when I have transcended its ticks and tides, I fly in the air. In my flight, the ocean is but an endless monolith, serene, engulfed in solace.
  11. You could hear the wind in the leaves.
    An exercise for you, to unveil the metaphors and allegories.
  12. The marks humans leave, are most often scars.
    I’ll try my best, to leave as few scars as possible. And more smiles.
    I’ll try to walk light, so my trails won’t divulge the scars beneath.
  13. My thoughts are stars I couldn’t fathom into constellations.
    What a genuine way to say “I think, but I can’t make a lot out of it. And it sucks!”
    Galaxies thrive in my mind, and I couldn’t make the constellations. Only black holes.
  14. We’re as likely to hurt the universe as we’re to help it, and we’re not likely to do either.
    Disclaimer: Any attempts to describe this sentence will result in robbing its lustre.
  15. She was loved deeply and not widely.
    It doesn’t matter how many of them love me, how much of them loves me does matter.
  16. The real heroes aren’t the ones doing things. The real heroes are who notice things, paying attention.
    Staying witness to what you are, and the people (even better, the world) around you, isn’t despondency, or arrogance, or a lack of compassion, it is a liberty… a liberty from the nuances and shades of life. This isn’t the kind of liberty that lets you out of the shackles of life, but liberty of the kind that lets you live it, to the fullest.
  17. You don’t have to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you.
    After all, I could choose my afflictions. Scars are inevitable, after all. At least, it’s good to be bestowed the liberty to chose the scar-ers.

Finesse of a Witness

I love the way every day has something different to offer. Just imagine, considering a healthy lifetime of 100 years, you’ve got about 36,500 different and fresh ways to live through the day, barring the déjà vu instances, that is. One morning, you wake up from a dream that you wished, never ended. Another morn’, it’s a nightmare and you could not anyway sleep through it. Yet another day, you are awakened by the lustre of the dawn that briefs you about the surprises awaiting you. So, from the perspective of an opportunist, every morning has an opportunity that deserves the best of you, nevertheless the most of YOU.

Now, after having lived through the day, without losing an ounce of your energy by twilight, with the horizon extending to the farthest reaches of your insight, you sleep. Otherwise, it’s only slumber. One fine night, you sleep considering yourself an achiever,as all the vigour in you was manifesting to the best of the world around. Another night, you sleep with hurt pride, because some stranger to your world, who has no idea of the emotions you’ve hidden behind the veil of a blank face, has said something unruly.
Trust me, of the 19*365 nights I have survived, there have been sleepless nights, there have been a few years that are now oblivious to me (and the bliss that I’ve been in, too), and there have been quite a few nights that reminded me of the chivalrous knight in me that could fight any thought that tried to hurt me. I’ve had them all. Surely, I get it now, when they said, “Life has its colours, and then, their shades.”

After reading two monotonous paragraphs that had me blabbering in all honesty, you must surely be wondering what all of this is about. Well, better late than never, it’s just that I wanted to say
“Stay a witness, and that alone.”
I bet! I can surely see a few raised eyebrows, shot up like a bow.  Even, I’ve been taken aback when I realized it. The sole reason why I took you down the memory lane to talk about the different kinds of mornings and nights you’ve been through is because I wanted you to witness them, one after another. You’ve lived them, undeniably, but ever cared to see the various shades each day offered? Quoting myself,
“Stay not in your thoughts’ embrace,
Step aside and watch them race.”
You’ll just stand astounded, at how liberating it is, to watch your emotions and thoughts, in third person. Staying witness to what you are, and the people (even better, the world) around you, isn’t despondency, or arrogance, or a lack of compassion, it is a liberty… a liberty from the nuances and shades of life. This isn’t the kind of liberty that lets you out of the shackles of life, but liberty of the kind that lets you live it, to the fullest.

Just sit back and watch, like the sun does. Even when every other element of nature gets involved in some kind of activity, the sun just stays there, unperturbed. He is a perfect witness, to the tick and tide of time. And that’s one reason why he’s out there, at the zenith, beyond our reach. You attain certain superiority over everything else, by staying a witness. There’s a lot more divinity in beholding than in begetting, in being the eye than in being the hand.

Those people who think they are inactive because they only listen, watch and enjoy the show,
“At least, you’re unaffected by the results, you don’t lose grip on the neutrality you’ve always had. It’s not inactivity, its silence. And all silence is action transcended.”

If you keep trying fitting into a shoe that doesn’t fit you, you can neither run nor walk. All you can do, is stand still. Just the same way, if you feel the need to fit into a bunch of misfits, just stand still and keep watching. Better that way! Good luck.

Signing off,
A Witness(unfortunately, not that alone)

The moth in my Orchard

As the sun rose to a dreamy morn’
 and the tiny squirrel savoured its acorn,
yet another day was born
much to the midnight’s scorn.

The daisies vivified the orchard,
even as a pyre lurked behind.
Caterpillars, in cocoons bind..
their older siblings, in wings coloured.

The dawn might have its perks,
but as nature has it, the metaphor lurks
in the darkness of that previous night,
when my eyes opened to deep insight.

I shall talk of the moth,
that grabbed my eye in facile.
Owe that to its futile hassle
to get to the pyre, burn in its wrath.

Or maybe that’s all my eye could see,
and more to it, there could be.
Or maybe that’s all I could infer,
blind to the pristine metaphor.

Broke the incessant thought chain,
basked in its vivid silence,
in such solitude, moments hence..
chaos condensed and chose to explain:

“A pity though, the moth is pitied.
A paradox that deserves all pity.
Despite all life and its brevity,
that light was the moth’s prime need.
Ah! It stings to call that greed,
as inferred by a mind en route insanity.
Blind to the pyre’s wrath,
bound to the  fire’s warmth,
docile to the pangs of the pyre,
devoted to the purity of fire.
The fire it has seen,
flew into it, light it has been.”

Wary of all my thoughts, in a morbid quagmire,
this insight of a blind moth, I shall admire.
For, it has taught me:
“WHAT YOU SEE, YOU MUST BE!”

From Slumber to Sleep!

We were born to wake up,
we were born to awaken..
we were born to make up
for all that was forgotten!

‘Oblivion’s curse’, they say..
I know not how long it shall stay!
Wonder even if it’s a boon or a bane..
as long as it doesn’t make me insane!

I wonder if all life’s a dream…
a rumbling of the divine stream..
In my slumber, I can’t trace
where my dream began!
In my life, I can’t trace
where my life began!
May be the Almighty
made us all in his sleep..
every creature projected
out of his Super-conscious..
But folks, His is Sleep..
And unsurprisingly, ours is Slumber!
He sleeps, not to be woken up..
but to seep into the tranquility of sleep..
We spend lifetimes in slumber..
to wake up with nothing to remember!
He never forgets, He always forgives..
But a human forgets as long as he lives..
Why? Curse? Is that all? the end of it?!

Humans as we, leading lives
confused between reality and dreams..
confused between tranquility and screams..
hoping to get into limbo-our apparent reality..
hoping to give it a go, at the cost of tranquility..
to wake up to find ourselves, still in slumber..
we haven’t been awakened, so can’t remember!
“To know that our sleep isn’t eternal..
one that could let us seep within”-
takes for one, a few lifetimes..
for another, only a few hard-times!!

Oblivion’s not about forgetting..
its more about not remembering!
When our slumber transcends to sleep..
there shall be one eternal dream..
that of life.. gushing out of the Super-conscious!

Petrichor!

Everything around lay dead, a standstill,
as I rest upon my chair, that creaks in dead beat.
While my chin rests on the window sill,
the orchard writhes at the scorching heat.

Stretching my arms, to shut the window
as the sight reeked of a dreary famine.
But the clouds assembled, shaping a grin
and as they met, there was a sudden glow.
I beheld the land losing its chagrin
and far beyond the valley,a stream began to flow.

“Rain! Rain! Rain!” , I heard a kid shout,
and he made sense, without doubt.
I rushed outside, to the front yard.
And to my delight, it was raining hard.

It didn’t rain forever though,
and the clouds moved apart.
Appealing, the sight of the meadow,
and dead air began to depart.

A narcotic fragrance, the petrichor
seemingly sprouted from the wet soil.
And above it, lay a clear sky
devoid of obscure figures and haze!

Ah! The Petrichor rooted in me
some fresh, deep ecstasy
filling each cell and nerve
filling me with a celestial verve:

“Oh Nature, your wondrous metaphor
now strikes to me, in all its vigour!
When people are gone,
those that once rained in your meadow,
their fragrant essence is born,
trailing your memories, like a shadow.
The rain left, but the petrichor prevailed
people left and their memories trailed!”

As the metaphor dawned on me
soon after the shower,
I gazed at the sky,
it was clearer than ever!

Fairy God Mother!

The world, a boundless rocky terrain..
on the verge of turning totally insane.
All the spirits prayed to Gods,
to dispense a fairy onto this world.

The Gods thought for a while..
and came up with an angelic smile.
Mother!” They shouted in glee..
“In this world, let mothers be!”
And within a few moments,
on this wide, wild rocky terrain..
fell a clear, sweet drop of rain.
The skies roared in joy..
and the angels soared very high!
In the fairy‘s womb, life started..
and all the prevalent gloom departed.
Then a baby was born.. and it cried..
for reasons that it knew better!
But the fairy smiled and only smiled..
to have her wings turned golden.
Her golden wings draped the baby..
Her golden trails adorned the baby..
With time, the baby grew..
and so did the fairy‘s love for it!
Her wrath is just another gesture
to express her boundless love.
Her soft hands crave to tend the baby..
and as she treads with her heavenly feet..
the world moves along.. bowing to her every step!
Indeed, it’s as much a gift to be a mother..
as it is to have a mother!
She never rants about her nine months of labour..
as her baby’s existence dwarfs everything else!
It’s Universal Motherhood that binds us all..
this moment mothers the next..
this movement mothers the next!

As the mother nourishes,
the child flourishes!

On the pursuit of Happiness!

Here I am, sitting under a half crescent moon!! While my friends have gone for the candle light march, a part of the earth hour, I’m doing my part too; Embracing moon shine, something invisible with the power supply on!!

I can tell you, a million thoughts whizzing past my mind, in various pursuits!! Of all of them, i’m trying to find the one in pursuit of happiness! Not really sure if its in there, roaming clueless, but worth giving a shot! So basically, I’m in the pursuit of pursuit of happiness.

So, if at all I came across anything that gave me happiness, I would smile with all my heart. Like, right now, this moonlit welkin above me, the breeze to which my hair sways, the whisper of a cricket hidden at an invisible corner, a tinge of silence in the ambience (thanks to the power cut), and the music that the silence has been strumming over the strings of endless thoughts…… all of these fill my face with a smile! An unusual smile, neither painted nor tainted, yea! Gotta guess I’m happy!!

Or wait, am I really? No, there’s a void, that’s apparent on the smile curve, like a distortion! A void, unlike the usual! A void filled with thoughts, a void not empty!

I’ve said you before, I’m exploring the brownian motion of my thoughts, making futile attempts to trace the thought in pursuit of happiness! Upon a bit of pondering, it dawned on me that may be the hunt isn’t really worth it. May be there’s no real thought that’s actually on one such pursuit. May be they’re all on the pursuit of oblivion! An oblivion concerning happiness! A happiness that I brought along with me, but forgot it with time! May be it isn’t time that gave the oblivion’s curse (or boon, I leave the choice to you), may be its my million thoughts! May be, under the criss- cross of these myriad thoughts, might lie a hazy silhouette of thoughtlessness! Yes!! It dawns to me now, I guess its that vacuum, devoid of any thought, maybe that’s where the pursuit of my pursuit of happiness ends! Surely, that vacuum leads me to happiness! I don’t tell this out of a hunch, people! Because the breeze that kissed my dry hair was in no pursuit, but got me to smile, because the moon light that lit me within and without, lit a lifeless stone too… but it had not a pursuit to embark on, it just enlightens selflessly, from vacuum!

 

My pursuit shall end in a line or two,

“Beyond the foggy mind, in a virgin island of thoughtlessness, lies my happiness!

All I need to smile, is win over my thoughts, that is, to lose them”

 

Signing off,

a sailor smiling towards an island!

India’s Mother, Nirbhaya! Every other woman, It’s daughter!

“HAPPY WOMEN’S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

:\ :\ :\ 😦 😦 😦 😥

Does it strike an irony to you?! Then, you gotta get used to it folks! Look at it this way: I don’t think I should be expecting a reply if I greet a woman today, with “Happy Women’s day”! Why, because it’s a ‘Happy Woman’s‘ day! After all that has been happening, it isn’t the least sensible of me to expect myself running into a happy woman! At least, not after watching the unfortunately banned documentary ‘India’s Daughter, Nirbhaya‘ released by BBC Four.

For those of you who are not familiar with the case, long-story-short:
A girl, an Indian girl.. with her close friend who is a boy(I don’t see why that has to be mentioned, but I get a vibe that I’ve to, unfortunately), starts back home after watching a movie. They get into a private bus, a handful of barbaric, blinded-with-lust, brainless and heartless creatures pounce over the girl, bite her everywhere, pull out her intestines, and then throw her(along with her friend) out of the bus! Literally, the beasts preyed on her!

Now, this is only the gist of the massacre! Yes, you read it right, a massacre! It hasn’t only wounded and killed that girl, but the whole of humanity! While many of the highly evolved souls are doing their part by helping the evolving souls to realise the divinity within, I see that there’s a larger amount of people who haven’t realised the humanity they were born with!
Needless to mention, the beasts got prosecuted and got sentenced to death, except a JUVENILE who shall be left free this December!(May be, to prey as an adult now)

Heavily putting aside all that the poor girl has been through…until she breathed her last, the after-effect of this was impressive! The uproar that followed, the fairer sex proving time and again that they’re not the weaker sex and embarrassing remarks from the so-called Big Heads! The girl was titled Nirbhaya! Please get this, Nirbhaya’s not a girl, a quality!

Now, that’s a lot of history, not quite the way to put in a nutshell! But, it still stirs up bubbles in our blood!

Let me clarify that no other creature plays as many roles as a woman does! Right from being a mother to being a wife, to be the emotional element of humanity, to be the tender arm of affection, to be the expressive eye of every feeling, and to be the object of universal love! Look, loving a woman is secondary, first respect her! Had she not put up with the enormous pain of parturition, you wouldn’t have entered this world! To have a soothing hand over your hair, when you’re at a low ebb.. you need a mother. To get a warm hug, that thaws your frozen heart.. to portray nature’s selflessness in a human form, to balance your life with an equal tinge of femininity, all of it a woman can do!(in various forms, however)
Doesn’t it occur to you that, for all the difference she makes to your otherwise lifeless life, she deserves some respect?! She deserves love, she deserves your shoulder to lean on, she deserves some humanity, folks!

The world comes to a standstill without a woman, deprived all the life you’ve ever seen! Live and let her live, with her head held high, with no trace of fear, with a woman’s heart! Always remember, it takes a woman and a man to stay human!

I’d agree that the Man is the courageous one, on the day when a woman walks with courage and confidence!
I’d agree that the Man is the muscular one, on the day when a woman isn’t afraid of him!
And I’d agree that the Man is A Man, on the day when a woman is given the right to live a Woman(and nothing below it, rather beyond!

Signing off,
a seeker of humanity!

A horizon I believed in!

I saw him again, Sir Verseworth…
this time, walking at his best pace!
I couldn’t figure, what he was heading to..
I kept guessing, it might be the horizon!

I walk, I brisk, I run, I try…
yet, to suit his pace, I’ve to fly!
But a flightless winged bird am I,
so, far away from him, I lie!

As I followed his trail,
he paused, to let me catch his pace!
I ran to him, with his blissful face..
and all the hullabaloo made me pale!

Before I could enquire about his quest,
he chose to answer, reading my mind..

“Son, I’ve embarked on a journey,
a journey that’s driven by my belief!
My mind can think, can imagine..
but it’s my heart, that chose to believe!
And I believe my heart,
for it gave me the power to believe!
Now, I’m heading to a horizon..
a horizon where the sea of thought
and the clear sky, of its manifestation, meet!”

I pondered, and then I believed…

that what drove him is what he’s heading to!
I chose not to stay heartless to my heart..
I believed, and I shall be relieved!

Humanity Redefined?!

Of all the planets in space,
life chose to thrive on Earth!
Soon, souls chose bodies and took birth..
then, they reproduced to continue their race!
Over time, species evolved, into all you can see!
And also came humans, those that you claim to be!
It didn’t happen in a jiffy, evolution!
With evolution, lingered around what you call ‘Civilisation’!
Civilisation took myriad years too, millions!
Yet, of late, something’s been happening in a blinker!
You got me right, if you thought of ‘Barbarism’!
Life was a reward, to delve in and find the divinity within!
Seems hilarious, now that we don’t even find the humanity within!
Religion remains the same! But the notion of it has not!
It changed, to its abyss, now a ‘tag’!
Beyond all history, good and evil fought..
But now that’s all you’ve got to brag!
Blasphemy, misconstrued than ever..
Simply because sanctity was misconstrued!
As always, the fog of perception continues to delude..
Leading you to a tunnel, with its other end shut!

Since when did a peace war make sense?!
Since when did shooting children go well with your conscience?!
Since when is mankind a past tense?!
Since when did you forget your life’s essence?!
Since when has divinity been oblivious?!
And since when did trigger-happy humanity seem obvious?!
Or wait, has humanity been redefined?!
If so, aware me of it..
So I can tell my kids to be beware of it!

On a spiral!

The time when I start writing this reads: 10:47 P.M (I.S.T), the 31st of December, 2014.
This day as such holds no special importance to me, at least not as much as the year has taught me! Every year, precisely, every moment, we spiral into the infinite essence of life. Its more like you have crossed the event horizon of a black hole, only that this is no hole; in fact, its all a void-less space, that’s a whole! In the spiral of life, (No! I won’t call it a roller-coaster ride), you spiral in, simply by living it!

Years have been spent, by men and women, striving for a ‘living’!
Hardly moments have been spent, ‘living life’!

We run towards an apparent destination, our thoughts racing across our mind, towards futile ends.. Ever did we care to stay still and lull our thoughts to an infinite slumber?! Or may be, just stand aside and observe our thoughts as they race?!
“Stay not, in your thoughts’ embrace.. Just step aside and watch them race!”, this could be my Utopian resolution(Utopia, is relative, you see!) for the year ahead!

May be its all a celestial allegory, how a black hole is invisible to sight, how we spiral in once we cross the event horizon, how its a dying star! Only with a few alterations, that the whole is visible to our sight, and that its a soul’s final destination.(wouldn’t use ‘dying’, given the sinister shade it’s been given, by people).

The time when I end writing this reads: 11:00 P.M (I.S.T), the 31st of December, 2014.
Who knows, may be I spiraled in, because I lived as I loved these moments!

The Hand that made!

Once upon a time,
All that was under the sky..
began to feel very high!!

The deserts boasted of their dunes,
The winds boasted of their tunes,
The sun boasted of His glow..
The river boasted of Her flow..
And the clouds boasted of Rain..
and the Debate began to turn insane!

Then, a wise man, that stood all this while…
hearing the petty conversations, gave a smile..
He looked like a recluse, so do many wise men..
and had a rugged white beard that was dirty then!

He addressed each of them:
“Oh my dear Desert,
You indeed carry the sands of time..
but men’s trails are gone with the wind..
You are what the dried seas left..
and all life that you have bereft!
Nomads walk over you, and their trails
are not talked about, unlike fairy tales!”

“Oh my dear Wind,
You’re indeed fortune’s child..
sometimes wild and then mild..
you are born nowhere,
and you die nowhere..
and if you stay still..
life comes to a stand still!
But you only carry,
you can never contain!
You gift us a beautiful silence,
but you play your endless tunes!”

“Oh my dear Sun,
the eternal epitome of Radiance..
of all that changed over the years,
you never did, you bred no fears..
you glowed like HIM,
with light to your Brim!
You witness everything,
with your mighty presence unnoticed..
But, you only remain a witness!!”

“Oh my dear river,
you are a very deep metaphor.
You pass through forests and boulders,
and a weight upon your shoulders..
but you finally merge with the sea..
and it’s not your violence that’s your destiny!”

“Oh my dear Clouds,
you give me hope with your silver lining,
and quench my thirst with your downpour..
You are but a vapour..
and may be moved by the winds,
or steamed by the Sun!”

“But, that Hand that made all this..
He remains eternal, with immense bliss!
He made the desert’s surprise,
He made the wind’s eternity,
He made the river’s metaphor,
He made the Sun’s radiance,
He made the Cloud’s moist!
He shall be every seeker’s destination,
He shall be your very reason!”

A fairy tale need not be a fairy tale after all!

A fairy tale need not be a fairy tale after all!

Now, if you were not perplexed with that, you got me there, right away!

Most of you reading this, might not believe in fairies at all (mostly because of a preconceived notion that they have wings and fly, and you have hardly seen one such creature). While some of you might not care to think of fairies as you count that as ‘Dreaming’, and a few of you out there have chosen to believe, and cared to ‘dream’, and realised that not all ‘fairies’ look as charming as Peter Pan, and not all of them fly high in the sky(they might fly, if you get the metaphor). And I direct this post to those few folks, that have lived momentary bliss, or that eternal, in the presence of a fairy, visible to either Sight or Insight!

Now, when you’re in crisis, you would want a fairy to come to your rescue. Ever wondered how it might be if the crisis itself was a fairy?! Well, I bet, it surely is. Before you conclude anything, read this, and comment what you feel:

THE FAIRY’S TRAIL!

The day arrived with all its grandeur
after all the dark I’d to endure!
The bird’s sweet song..
and the smile it brought along!
I had nothing to worry about..
no chaos, no pathos, not a doubt!
This only lasted for a while..
everything left.. even my smile!
The sudden darkness,
that  never witnessed!
From the sands of this dark hour,
all of a sudden, ascended an angel!
Neither the moon, nor a star,
the ambience was still dark as hell!
The angel’s wings were grey..
her attire not so grand!
I seemed to be her prey
as she shot her heavy wand!
She cast on me, some spell
that made my life a sort of hell!
Many fairies walked into my life..
but this fairy let me walk my life.
Her sharp eyes saw my deepest self..
she wanted to bring it out.
She did, and she fled soon!
Her trails, all golden..
but was feared by men and women!
CRISIS, A unique fairy..
that cast her spell to let me free..
not free from Sorrow’s invasion..
but from my life-like illusion!

Now, tell me, what do you think, or even better, feel?!

Darkness cast its shadow!

We walked along, miles together..
just like birds of same feather,
my shadow and I!
He was very faithful,
even if he found me hateful!
Only, when the light’s gone,
he’d not be around, to be seen!
And I’d be one soul, love-lorn..
wondering at how could he be so mean!
May be I was wrong, so I waited..
had a hunch that my destiny isn’t so ill-fated!
Waited long, until it grew pitch dark..
and came a sound from the dark:
“Light would cast your dark shadow,
who’d leave, along with the glow!
But, I, Darkness, would cast your bright shadow,
deep within you, that will glow..
as I leave, into my vacuum..
into my mother, Nothingness’s womb!
You can’t see that bright shade,
until, into light, I fade!”
The voice faded, I closed my eyes,
it was bright within, may be dark around..
but that didn’t bother me,
as I am what I see!
And the realisation that dawned:
“The shadow that light casts,
dies as the light fades!
The shadow that Darkness casts,
is born as the Darkness fades!” 

The Summer within!

I saw him again, Sir Verseworth
this time, walking towards my room.
I was Confined to my very little room,
filled with the winter’s dense brume.
All my sight seemed to be out of sight..
and I couldn’t have a moment of insight.
He was nearing my place..
with the fog hiding his face.
I was trying to clear the mist..
but couldn’t clear much.
Then, I felt a heavenly touch..
and the moment returned with all its gist.
I caught a glimpse of his long nose..
and he had the fragrance of a Rose.
Seeing him, all I did was to stare…
as the event that happened was too rare.
It was always me running to him,
but this time he came to me.
He gave me a glass with water to the brim..
and now, his whole face I could see.
He did not let me utter a few words..
as he began his celestial verse:
“Son, I could see the fog grow..
and the sweat upon your brow!
You sweat at the winter’s chill…
so I thought I must give you a pill!
Son, the fog grows with the winter..
but it also goes with the winter.
Try not to clear the brume..
that haunts your only room.
See beyond the mist and the winter’s ice.
There’s a fog in your room..
but remember, not in your eyes.
You find it dense and thick..
but that’s jus its little trick!
If you could look through..
you’ll find that the fog was never true!
The fog’s confined to the little room,
but out there, it’s just the sweet spring!
You were never confined to your little room..
You were only obsessed with this little thing!
You sweat because there was this summer..
deep within you, you just never knew!”
I wiped my sweat, my skin’s dew..
and I smiled at it, I knew its summer!

In-the-depth-of-winter

No more wars, right?!

Chivalry buried in a coffin,
Gallantry executed in a gallow,
mankind on its spree of deeds shallow,
conscience a myth, just like a griffin!

Might have to rephrase the last line, that conscience is a myth! Honestly, hearing what the conscience has to say is a myth! Back in time, a few centuries ago, wars were meant to acquire kingdoms or territories, and that alone! A little later, as time advanced(and not mankind), wars had prisoners along with bloodshed. Even later, when they talk of the Renaissance period, when all the global uplift in scientific cult is said to have occurred,when all the spirit of inquiry and experimenting was nurtured to its best, all the soaring science was grounded to aid roaring wars! When great thinkers were forced to write about wars, and a misconceived chivalry, when innovation grew in dynamites and not dynamos, when  scientific minds were compelled to invent WMD,  and all the so-called renaissance was but apparently trigger happy, infamous World wars happened! These wars, unlike their predecessors, had no agenda except establishing a useless identity. Then followed a ‘cold’ war, rightly named, for humanity was at the brink of its worst winter! This one, differed but little from its predecessors.. and agenda that meant ‘Establishing Superiority!’.

Now, back to the present, there are no wars, Hurray!
Or did I just get wrong there?! Was I all happy for nothing?!
Well then, you answer me:
This century, in fact this millennium started, surviving a rumoured Y2K. Then, the twins collapsed, because two airplanes ‘crash-landed'(did they?!) on them. Later, a plethora of headlines that talked more of blood & bullets than about just POLITICS(Ah! This word had its own versions in different times). Video footage featuring a man being beheaded meant pride to a certain class of mankind.(yet, we call man’kind’?!). This is nothing, just yesterday, many innocent young hearts that throbbed with all life, vitality and vigour, stopped! No, it wasn’t due to Myocardial Infarction(but a Mankind Malfunction,I prefer to call it), rather just a bullet that hit them dead, by some half-dead beasts that carry the tag of humanity!
So, folks, what do u say?! There are no wars?! Time to celebrate?! Or may be we are so used to wars that we forgot to tag them as wars anymore?! These wars, if u tag them, have no hearts(forget having an agenda)! Surely, only time is advancing, will humanity, ever?!

War’s an irony.. it’s a triumph with no survivors. War’s a tyranny, it makes ‘man-kind’ an oxymoron. War’s a bitter symphony to the evil. War’s a turmoil, it brings dead smell on your own soil. Briefly,
“War’s a war between the conscience and essence!”

Heart pumps blood, but at instances like these, it bleeds too, when you hear that a few beasts with ammo attack a school, robbing children of their destiny, and the world of its humanity!

The Horse-Rider!

And then, I seized the horse, as I walked with its rider!

And then, I seized the horse, as I walked with its rider!

Confined to my little home,
I spend all night and all day!
The curtains let not a light ray
to peep in, light my home!
One great morn’, great for a reason..
the flower’s fragrance marked spring season!
Resting one hand on the window sill,
I opened those antique curtains.
Surprise! The world in a standstill..
nothing moved, like the mountains!
The restless leaves, in a deep slumber..
and no insect moved in the tree’s timber!
Everyday, I heard the tick of a steed..
pacing with its rider in full speed!
The rider called himself TIME
and named his horse PRESENT.
On this dawn, on my veranda..
I saw the rider halt his horse.
He seemed to have no agenda..
and spoke to me in a voice coarse:
“Master, how can I serve you?!”
Startled to hear, I wondered..
and the sky suddenly thundered:
“Son, the horse is yours
and its rider, your slave!
Your path, he’ll pave..
your every disease he cures!
He only demands a walk with you..
where you should neither lag nor advance!
He’ll serve you, loyal and true
as long as you seize his horse!”
I was glad I opened my window
that showed the world outside my li’l home!

Fearophobia!

Oh fear, not again, not this time.
You stop my joy and my vain rhyme.
Moments ago, I used to close my eyes,
to hear my inner voice, so subtle.
But, now as I close my eyes,
I hear nothing but a loud rattle.
Seemed like my space ripped apart,
and all in me, first my joy, began to depart.
Days followed by ages, I’ve never heard
my conscience, nor the inner voice.
I felt like a vain flightless bird..
that was chained, deprived of its poise.
Closed eyes no longer offered me insight,
but monsters, devils and a  deep fright.
I feared myself and the world around..
I feared every sight and every sound.
Helpless and vain, I would cry
and those tears never seemed to dry.
But, somebody like a sage
began to speak all of a sudden:
“As you think, I’m not any sage..
I was your confidence, hidden.
Today, I’d been driven out by fear,
I seem to have no place inside,
But, if you will, I can still reside.”
I begged “Sire, please do..
I’ve been deprived of many, but not you.
Now, if you turn your back on me,
there’s nothing else I wish to see!”
It smiled, befitting its name, and said:
“Bearer, Pain may have fled,
for all those tears you’ve shed..
but this one wont, this fear..
it is too big to condense to a tear!
I fought with fear all the while,
but your thought came my way..
Fear’s army, much to my dismay
drove me out of you, with its guile.
If you’d ever want me back,
Drive that sinister fear out..
Let not a chance for it to sprout.
Your thought is the fear’s track..
The more you think,
the more you sink..
for Fear’s made its track deep within..
hiding your conscience from your every sin!
Fear not, I’m with you my lord…
I’ll fight it, but you’re my sword..
make space for me within you..
and I’ll serve you loyal and true!”
I feared only one thing now..
And that was fear itself!

A day that Said!

There are two sides to the word “illogical!” One, unfortunately the more common side : Something that makes no sense, logically nonsensical. The other : Something that’s way beyond all logic and Sense. 

Now, with that said, it may have sounded ‘illogical’ when I said One has to seek for what the day has to say. You may comprehend the word ‘illogical here, in either way u want to. Well, you see.. for the very joy of God, he created this world.. to manifest his sweet holy plan in the best way possible. He made space, he made life, he made wisdom and he made you n me. (Man made Vice, lets not discuss bout it but!) And, as a test of ‘time’, he made time. Yes, this cosmos is space bound.. this living(and not life) is time bound. You ‘live’ every day.. bound by dusk and dawn… some energy and a yawn!! Every’day’ you ‘live’… what adds the life to it? If it was lifeless, how could you ever live?! Well, you have the very power to make your living full of life. And how do you manifest this power – by realising the life within! Seek, until you reach the peak… the journey’s so sleek.. and you ought to be meek. Time, beautifully ‘says’ a lot… be it through its influence.. or be it by the way its perceived! Now, before I continue on this tedious homily(i guess it sounds that way to u), have you thought of the fine line between Perception n Reception? … You are open to millions and brilliance of perceptions. But there’s a single reception. That fortunate few times when your perception matches reception, this universe is yours. A momentary bliss, your soul jumps within, out of immense joy(its old friend). Time says so much, we only hear it tick. Time,using its channel named vainly as a DAY, expresses things abstract(or they may seem so). Once, you take the first step to extract this thing that’s abstract.. your inner space would bloom. And once you hear it with that ‘ear within'(even better if you tap!), time ceases to control you. You’re no longer seized.. for time has ceased. That was to be actually called a MOMENT, one that lacks MOVEMENT.(Infinitely in the present)
That ‘moment’ when your mind goes blank(to make space for joy), and you jus live in the present, you hear the day.. devoid of all its ticks and tides. That’s your day… as you seized it(it seized you formerly).
This was what my vain mind could ‘perceive’ about “What the day had to say!”

The Hill beyond the Woods!

The cosmic spirit spoke thus, relating an incident beyond life. The spirit was popularly called a Saint in our world. The saint spoke to me thus:

As I kept gazing at it, It seemed to have fueled from my sight. The light grew more than my sight could bear. My eyes were helpless, so they closed in shame. And then, with those tender gates closed, I saw the light in all its brilliance. This time, I realized it was not jus being fueled by my sight, rather my Insight. As I began to ponder, Another beautiful realization began to dawn upon me. I was taken aback to know that it was actually fueling me, my sight, my insight. I could but smile at my shallow interpretations initially. 

Now I know, you’d be wondering what was that much spoken ‘it’ about! Well, I wish I could describe it. But, for that, I should firstly have a glimpse at the core of this light source. It took me hard time to decipher the outline itself, forget the core. All I knew was, ‘it’ met me when I was solitary in the dark woods of my mind. It didn’t seem to belong to the woods, was some alien to the creatures around… and there was no UFO , but something that was claimed to be UIF(Unidentified Inner Self). It landed all of a sudden before me while I was wandering alone in my illusive woods. And you must trust me, these woods had more seeds than trees, they never seemed to sprout in my lifetime. I often reconsidered my calling it ‘Woods’; It must rather be called ‘Seeds’. 
That celestial sight, Err.. that celestial light began to approach me. I never let anyone trespass into my woods, but this wasn’t seeming like any trespassing, it was rather jus passing. And I felt for a moment, “May be the Woods trespassed into me long time ago, when I grew oblivious to my infantry and its bliss!” And this feeling rooted in me later. Now, as this beam of light approached me, I felt heavy. You may call it “Light made me Heavy!” if you wanted a pun, but trust me.. this was more than I could ever decipher. I was running my way through the woods of my mind, to get out of it, and met a Highway, which had a sign board. It said “Run this way, you’ll find your way!” I wondered for a while, but wonders seemed obvious to me now. I kept running before I ran into another Sign Board. It said “Your destiny’s a smile ahead!” I grinned, and I was suddenly teleported to a temple that lied under a hill. I never looked back when I was running. So it didn’t astonish me when I saw that same shaft of light in the temple. The hill above read ‘The Blissful Hill’ . I was too confused to comprehend it. I went into the temple, the light shaft ran closer to me. Did I forget to tell you that I was not bound by time all this while, I mean I didn’t feel a second. And as the beam merged into me, I looked back at the woods, it was nowhere to be seen. And the temple had a few more disembodied light shafts like mine.. and they were all walking up the Hill without any effort. And I was automatically drawn to the foot of the Hill. I began climbing up too. My way up, I saw infants being dragged down the Hill, and they were sobbing with all their might. They were dragged into something like a Black Hole, as I couldn’t see it. After a moment’s contemplation, I realized “The infants were being carried into the woods that I came from, away from the Blissful Hill! It seemed like people inside the woods never knew the temple beyond the woods as they grew totally oblivious to it. But for a few, after much turmoil, found the light beam that drew them towards this temple!” As I began climbing up the hill, its peak was nowhere to be seen, and every step I made up the hill, the name of the hill was becoming more justifiable. And I wished there wasn’t any peak! I’m still on my journey, let me know when you found the Hill. I will help you!
shaft of light

Protagonist Or Audience?!

That awkward moment when you realise you can’t change things around  for the simple reason that you can’t change yourself. You perceive things around, but do u receive them rightly?!

You ponder about the drama going around.. the trauma whirling around.. and you realise in vain, “I can only see the cyclone and be a victim of its depression! Why, because I’m that whirlwind. And sucking people into my whirl wind only makes them writhe in pain, forget letting ’em escape.”
May be God gave us logic to know there is something beyond it. But, he showered the power of Magic only onto a few, only a few that say what they’ve already manifested. The bottom of our sea is fathomless. But we care more about the high tide and low tide. Our high tide submerges islands, but our low tide submerges us. May be because we can’t look deep into our sea. The sun comes at noon, close to you, overhead, to say “Son, I’m gonna set soon. So take all my light so that u can survive the night!” But you only feel his heat(I think it’s rather the warmth of his affection!) and forget that light. We know that there’s this summer within, but we look more at the fog around. This is pathos or chaos, I don’t know, nor can I ever know!
All turmoil’s transient, you’ll laugh at that turmoil once you get back to your soil. All the trauma’s a drama, its your choice though whether to be its protagonist or the audience.

The tree with a yellow leaf!

There was once a tree that had colourful flowers, sweet fruits, long roots and green leaves. Autumn was near at sight and one leaf turned yellow, ready to whither. The tree trembled in fear, its flowers pale and fruits bitter and roots wounded. It was still autumn approaching and the tree forgot the spring that preceded it. But, a fellow tree said: “Mighty tree, the golden bird is still on your shoot, and humus is still on your root. Tremble not for a yellow leaf, its autumn and the season will end, so will the yellow. Autumn is a test of your time, and before its spring later, it’s a test of your survival.. you need to bring it all up by yourself. The yellow leaf wont fall off, it will regain its green in a moment unseen… but you should smile at the bird that rests there. It will rest for a while, and soon, if you be true and good, it’ll nest here too!!.. The bird’s golden pinions will add light to yo beauty.. you just need to welcome the bird!” The tree was in no mood to listen, but the bird still gave a chance, it stormed and the bird fled. After the storm’s done and the tree had its branches writhing and twisting, the bird with its mighty wings restored things to place and the tree was green and hale and hearty. The tree thought it wasn’t a reason to wail, it was jus a season of momentary pale. All its pallor and the ambience with its squalor vanished, only green leaves and the golden bird’s nest remained.
As always, you are the tree my dear. It’s just autumn, spring is on its way, welcome hope on its golden wings, listen to yo well wishers, hope gives u chances and leaves not until its client dances. It comes to your rescue when its a storm.. and absorbs all your sorrow and a worry-filled tomorrow! But, unlike the tree, u don welcome it. You instead let weeds to creep round your bark.. weeds called pessimism, worry and fear. Before they take their roots, let them go. Wake up from your long slumber, refresh your rough timber.
 
You may think “Its all very easy for people to say”, but u sure have a way… only at storms trees sway… after that in peace they lay.. all u need is to pray!
Be the solution, never the question. Make a choice before the forked road closes.

I’m a blood drop, not a bloody drop!

Hey you, I am a drop of blood,
you might have seen me when you bled!
But you might not have seen me when I bled,
for the way life was being led!

He that made all, made me too..
and he gave me a colour so true!
I have a colour of longest wavelength,
and I make your bravery & strength!
In the womb, you were a foetus,
there I served you meals sumptuous..
You were brought out, you cried..
and heart pumped me into your arteries.
Millions of cells lived, and many died..
but I had to fill up every cell in peace!
If i got tired a bit, they called you Pale..
so I flowed tirelessly, not wanting you to fail!
I come from a known source,
but I’m driven by an unknown force!
I come from a heart that pumps selflessly,
so, like my mother, I flow selflessly!
You get wounded, and I peep out.
Sometimes, you see a lot of me..
you call it a Blood Shed!
I flow through every chakra of Kundalini..
so, I wandered everywhere in this universe.
God hints his Omnipresence through me!
I hint his selflessness through me!
But, I’m not God, so I beseech:
“I want nothing in return,
I take nothing from you.
But, please give me
to he who needs me..
you wont lose me,
you’ll only gain Him!”

The Twins!

Long back, before the world started.. God too was in a dilemma. He bounced in joy at the thought of creating life around.. He was blissful. But, he couldn’t find a reason that needed life. But, he ignored it thinking “Some things are better left without reason as they’re beyond it” But, he got one more dreadful question laid in front of him. “If I would start life, what reason, need be, to continue that life. Shall I make everyone eternal, just like me?!” But, that somehow did not stay strong on his Intuition. He felt the need to seek an answer from his fellow Gods and Goddesses. He asked Brahma, the answer rung “I’ll help u in creating life!” God was satisfied, but not fully. He asked Shiva, who replied with his third eye, “Eternity is for us. And it has its value intact when its divine and that alone! I’ll help u in dissolving them back into the divine vacuum.” God was satisfied better, but not fully yet!

He knew not whom to ask. Karma knocked the door of Vaikhunta. She passed through its seven doors.. and knelt at God’s feet at the Pala Samudra. Adisheshu looked at surprise to find a stranger. But God knew her, she was a part of him always. She came forward and said “Lord, I’ll help u reason the continuity of life. You create life and run it.. I’ll take care of the rest.” God knew why, but he wanted her to put it out right.
She said,
“Oh dear God, our Supremo,
life is divine, with a glow.
But, every creature that lives,
has to take what he gives!
He’ll live it now,
and he’ll live it then..
in his every next life,
he will work me out..
It’s what his life is all about!
Life would reap what it would sow,
and with every lifetime, I would grow!
By their actions and deeds,
I’d help them with living and needs..
and if they no longer deserve life,
and are eligible to get back to you..
I would pass on my charge to Shiva..
He would dissolve life, into a divine Nothing!”
God agreed, and here we are, as per their plan
We’re all a part of that plan, and our deeds decide our future.. not just in this lifetime. I met you, and you met me.. and its all Karma working us out to work her out. Destiny is Karma’s twin! We meet each other to realise our destiny and work out karma.. as long as there’s a need for the other to have the other in his/her life, they prevail. Once its done, Divine intervention takes place.
Whatever happens is for Destiny to unfold and Karma to be worked out. 

Casting my Shadow!

I saw him again, Sir Verseweorth..
this time, pacing on his steed!
He seemed to pay no heed
to the river or its weed..
He drove at light’s speed!
A vain endeavour though,
I decided to follow
this swift one on his way..
even as he was a mile away!
I could see him heading towards a meadow,
heading swift, casting a swift shadow!
Very soon, he was out of sight
and this somehow, did not seem right!
Nor could I hear the horse gallop..
nor could I see its worthy rider!
Yet, with all might, I made up
my mind, to think a bit wider..
to decipher the brevity of this scene,
with its protagonist unseen! 

Pondering I was, though helpless..
sitting there with a humbled prowess!
Heard a celestial voice from above..
sounded like Sir Verseworth now!
“Dear one, I’m now in a celestial realm, heaven.
And I’ve seen you moments ago..
So I left there, my shadow!
I’d to race my way to eternity
while I was in my peaks of vitality.
But I still cast my shadows
to let seekers trace their way!
So, leave all your woes..
and even your sorrows away!
Wake up, and trace my shadow..
but don’t forget to cast yours!
Reach heaven, your rightful place…
but don’t forget to leave a trace!”
There I was, casting my shadow..
making my way to the meadow!

horse rider silhouette

When I called Death!

Confined to a world of sin,
ears bleeding out of the incessant din,
into the blue, due to my race’s tyranny,
and nothing sounds less than a cacophony! 

I lay on my bed,staring at its end…
I’ve been laying on it for a while…
beside me,stood no beloved or friend,
and I’ve long ago bid adieu to a smile! 

Every dark shade tried to seize me,
and my dormant chivalry tried to cease me!
Nothing good left to think,
as i longed to near life’s brink!
The sun never seemed to wink,
and everything around me began to stink! 

I called for Death,holding my breath..
surmising him on his chariot of grandeur,
that arrives after all life could endure!
But,I was in for a surprise,
as he marched alone, against my surmise!
He was gentler than thought,
And i was a warrior that never fought!
He stood beside me,
and compassion was all I could see!
“Son,I’m no destroyer,
I’m always a dissolver!
You shall not dissolve,
until your soul shall resolve!
To call upon me midway,
only helps you lose your way!
The mind chains you with thoughts,
and the soul frees you from droughts!”

He waited for my response,
as I felt heavy,at once!
My soul let out a loud whisper,
and I bid adieu to Death!

Autumn & Spring!

I saw him again, Sir Verseworth..
this time, staring at a mighty Banyan tree.
Nothing could let him free
of his ever-since-birth staring spree.
It seemed like summer, at noon..
when people, at the heat, began to swoon!
A few of ’em rested under the shade..
of this mighty banyan foliage.
With time, the green began to fade..
the tree began to shed all that leafage.
Almost the brink of summer, autumn..
when the tree hit its rock bottom.
Yes, all its might turned to fright..
and God forbid, it was a scary sight!
But Sir Verseworth kept staring..
A smile on his face, he wasn’t sneering!
Standing beside him, I silently whispered:
“Sir, Its Autumn.The green will come back..
and so does its shade, its jus a rough track!”
As always, he had different reasons..
than this usual cycle of seasons!
He spoke:”Oh My Dear Son,
there’s a lot more than the autumn.
There are reasons more than one..
that people hardly care to fathom!
Throughout Summer, this Banyan..
gave a cool shelter to every man.
At a point, the tree began to wail..
as all its green turned a sudden pale.
The tree thought in sorrow:
‘I couldn’t witness my own shade!’
So, all its leaves began to fade.
One by one, all the leaves shed..
and every man under it fled!
This was its autumn, my son.
By the brink of autumn, the tree will know:
‘Irony, that man wants some shade..
from the golden sun, under my bower
I’m open to His light and the Sky’s shower..
and everything for me, that’s made!’
And as this realisation dawns..
flowers bloom over its mighty arms,
The green returns, so does the spring..
and again the tree would be a beautiful thing!”
I stared at the tree, in its autumn,
and I knew only the roots were its bottom!

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Touching!

I saw him again.. Sir Verseworth..
this time, feeling a drop of dew!
He laid his pale hands on me,
and I began to feel a divine ecstasy!
I trembled in joy and all glee..
as if all my pinions have been left free!
I wondered how his pale hand
suddenly became a magic wand!
I was so brave now, like a warrior…
seemingly bound by no apparent barrier!
A momentary feel of his skin,
made me feel “All the world’s my kin!”
Unable to decipher the magic behind..
I had to get into Sir Verseworth’s mind.
He simply smiled at my thought,
He said “Mind’s not the right spot..
peep into my heart if you can!”
But I wasn’t him, I was just a man.
The sage then began his words of wisdom:
“My hand, pale it may be..
or may be that’s all you could see..
but my hand, like yours, can feel
everything that needs to heal!
Men often say, ‘Touch!
That really doesn’t matter much!’
But this mighty universe as such..
made its baby steps after a divine touch.
The feel of a baby’s skin so tender..
reveals you a part of this world’s wonder.
A kiss from your loved ones..
could heal your sorrows all at once!
When you’re bound in an embrace..
you feel the joy of all heavens and fays!
Frozen with all the winter’s snow,
a feel of warmth from someone you know..
you melt into your being, and its fire within…
a touch that could melt all your sin!
Truly said “Touch’s the most primitive!”
Few touch the life we live..
Few touch our wounded space..
with a big smile on their face!
I laid my hand on you..
felt your void, filled it all!
Filled it with my love for you..
and now you’re free from every thrall!”
I clasped his hand, that pale one..
Now I knew, it had the light of the sun!

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Passion or Profession!

Sir Verseworth was his name
and he was a man of much fame.
But I never knew him
though he was very well-known.
His glass was with wine to the brim
and was relishing meat leaving the bone.
He was at the other end of the table.
And Oh!..his mind was never stable!

It was after he left
that I came to know he is a famous person.
Again, I saw him….his pen moving too swift
over the paper with a style descent!

I enquired about his profession.

The answer came, “PASSION or PROFESSION?”
Oh!..Even his answer seemed to be a question!
I said “As you wish!”
He said, “As for Passion,
I am a poet….
As for Profession,
I am nothing as yet!”
Oh! he says he writes poems.
He says he is jobless.
Is he a Gobbledygook..??
“No!”..he said, seeming to read my thoughts.
He shook his head
and said in a verse:
“Passion feeds my soul…
Profession feeds my family!”
My soul is Well-fed,
but my family lacks good bread!”
I did not get him
for the time being!
It took me a day
to comprehend this human-being!

Then I felt:
Yeah!..his name
befits his style!
His very fame
was for his joblessness and his odd smile!

To commons, like me!

To commons like me,
to Whom, non-dualism was utopia..
To commons like me,
to whom, thoughtless mind was a farce..
To commons like me,
to whom, horizons were just imaginary..
And to commons like me,
to whom, twilight was uncertainty..
Something common happened,
a debate between my Mr.Good & Mr.Bad!!
Mr.Good wasn’t as charming,
Mr.Bad wasn’t as harming!
But their debate was as insane..
as each had their perspectives of being humane!

Mr.Good:
“God made me, man made you!
I’ve golden wings that can fly,
I live in every human being..
and I fuel them towards being human!
If they’ve the wick, I’ve the flame..
I look after their well-being,
and i just can’t stand suffering!!”

Mr.Bad, fuming in all his temper,
someone you could hardly tamper!
He had his lines to tell,
with his voice that sounded hell:
“You live in him, but I thrive!
You believe him, but he believes me!
You’re a hill to climb, you see..
while I’m an abyss to dive!
You could give the flame of his wick,
but i melt the wax to nothing!
He never figures my little trick,
and is numb to my incessant sting!” 

The debate would sure have went on,
until my conscience walked in!
In its tones of whisper:
“How funny can this get,
a straight pointless debate!
To brag of all you’re not,
and to speak of being happy or distraught!
To you, Mr.Good:
‘God made neither of you!
You’ve wings, that know not, to fly!
You live in a human,
but you’re not his life!
You’ve the flame, but you’re not the flame!
You can’t stand suffering, nor can you suffer!’
To you, Mr.Bad:
‘You only thrive to survive.
He believes you, but doesn’t trust you!
You’re an abyss, where he FALLS!
You melt the wax, but not to nothing!
You sting him, you lose your poison!’
To both of you:
‘The mind that a human has,
that made both of you!
The mind is your progenitor,
and it could be Your terminator!
The mind thinks, and only thinks,
and the ship sails, or sinks!
Once a human gets beyond thought,
after petty battles,like these,are fought…
both of you cease to survive…
and I alone would thrive,
in every soul and whole!
He that made me,
shall drive me to eternity!’ “

Now, to commons like me,
that was something uncommon!
Yet, I’m liking it, and always will!

The bigger Infinity!

Ah! We all live in a UNIVERSE..
a name we give to it, when we converse!
But honestly, I’d call it a hologram…
that looks different at different angles!
They say, it was born out of the big bang,
They say, it was born when angels sang!
But folks, I beg to differ..
it was born every time u perceived it!
To call it a hologram, I still prefer..
an infinity born out of your perception!

Yet, there’s another universe..
one that isn’t a hologram!
It usually doesn’t surface when we converse…
more likely to, when your silence would hum!
“Some infinities bigger than other infinities!”
And trust me, this is a bigger infinity!
This universe doesn’t expand..
for it is, for all i know, boundless!
It is all divine vacuum, tending to infinity..
adorned by light & silence, nonetheless!
This pretty universe has one form,
unlike the former universe – the hologram!
It has but one divine dimension,
that takes ages and sages to behold, for us!

The two universes differ, in ways infinite!
But, of them all, there’s a bigger infinite:
We live within the hologram universe,
and the other universe lies within us!
Or may be the universe outside
is a projection of that inside?
(After all, a smaller infinity
could be a subset of the bigger infinity!)

You are not the drop in an ocean, you're the ocean in a drop! -Rumi

You are not the drop in an ocean, you’re the ocean in a drop!
– Rumi